the Lazarus Project  

I'M NATE.

After more than a decade of leading others, I heard a different call — to step away. For eight years I intentionally didn’t guide anyone; instead I apprenticed in solitude, learning how to “die quietly.” That meant releasing old stories, meeting the parts of myself I’d avoided, and learning practices that turn pain into presence. Those years were not withdrawal but a deep re-entry into life: simpler, truer, and more honest.

Illness amplified the lessons. I am a bone cancer survivor and I endured shingles in my eye — experiences that reshaped what I value and how I move through the world. Rather than breaking me, those trials refined my capacity for compassion, humility, and spiritual clarity. Through Jesus, I learned to take up my own cross each day — to rely on the Christ within rather than seeking rescue from outside.

My greatest offering now is embodiment: living vulnerably, presently, and fully loved, and inviting others to do the same. I teach grounded, ancient practices that helped me transform suffering into service. My work is meant to be practical and intimate — not theory but lived, daily devotion.

If you want honest teaching, a compassionate companion, and a community that values courage over perfection, follow me. Let’s learn together how to meet life — and one another — with curiosity, humility, and grace.

I'M JASON.

After 45 years of passive living, 20 of which I spent as a pastor, Father moved.  He brought me into the depths of His story.  In His love, I found dignity in both my grime and glory.  Stepping out of the shallows — from those identity lies and numbing behaviors I clung to — was costly.  Even so, the reward of walking with Father God continues to invigorate me.

My present practice is simple but rigorous.  The disciplines of living grounded and curious allow me to experience my true strength: I am a child of God.  Free of performance-based living, my self-worth is fixed in Father’s opinion of me.  In His acceptance, I am free to live, lead, and relate.  

I now offer, what I experienced.  A space to be seen, an invitation to walk in God’s grace and truth.  Wherever darkness might have settled.  Wherever light seemingly refuses to shine.  You are not alone.  This I know: Father’s living presence can transform you too.  

If looking for practical tools for spiritual attention.  If longing to be seen and heard, join me.  The space we will share is not defined by either perfection or defeat.  Together, we will learn to stand in God’s peace and become the men we were meant to be.